{"id":990130,"date":"2023-06-02T12:08:15","date_gmt":"2023-06-02T10:08:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/haranta.dusanrybar.sk\/?p=990130"},"modified":"2023-06-02T12:08:15","modified_gmt":"2023-06-02T10:08:15","slug":"hladanie","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/haranta.sk\/en\/hladanie\/","title":{"rendered":"H\u013eadanie"},"content":{"rendered":"<div data-elementor-type=\"wp-post\" data-elementor-id=\"990130\" class=\"elementor elementor-990130\" data-elementor-post-type=\"post\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-a052a54 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"a052a54\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;jet_parallax_layout_list&quot;:[]}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-no\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-2342b5a\" data-id=\"2342b5a\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-07447d0 elementor-drop-cap-yes elementor-drop-cap-view-default elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"07447d0\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-settings=\"{&quot;drop_cap&quot;:&quot;yes&quot;}\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p>Ten moment, kedy by som sa najrad\u0161ej sch\u00falil do klbka, ten moment, ke\u010f mi nikto nerozumie, ten moment, ke\u010f sa v\u0161etko pokaz\u00ed, ten moment, ke\u010f som mal nie\u010do skvel\u00e9 napl\u00e1novan\u00e9 a nevy\u0161lo to, ten moment, ke\u010f sa p\u00fdtam seba sam\u00e9ho: M\u00e1 to e\u0161te zmysel? Ten moment, ke\u010f som nedostato\u010dn\u00fd pre v\u0161etk\u00fdch a hlavne pre seba\u2026 \u00c1no, hovor\u00edm presne o tom momente. Vy viete, o ktorom.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-976ddd6 elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"976ddd6\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<h4 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">\u010co s n\u00edm, ako m\u00e1m pred n\u00edm unikn\u00fa\u0165, ke\u010f ma aj tak do\u017eenie, u\u017e o p\u00e4\u0165 min\u00fat, alebo zajtra, ke\u010f m\u00e1m dobr\u00e9 obdobie, tak nesk\u00f4r? Ako sa pred n\u00edm ukry\u0165, ke\u010f ma v\u017edy n\u00e1jde?<\/h4>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-57ed2f8 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"57ed2f8\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p class=\"p2\">U\u017e viem, nikdy nesprav\u00edm chybu, nikdy sa nebudem h\u00e1da\u0165 s partnerom, nikdy nebudem nedostato\u010dn\u00fd, v\u0161etk\u00fdm uk\u00e1\u017eem, \u017ee na to m\u00e1m, v\u0161etci ma bud\u00fa obdivova\u0165 a ja budem r\u00e1s\u0165, v\u0161etci mi bud\u00fa z\u00e1vidie\u0165, budem \u00faspe\u0161n\u00fd, u\u017e sa nenech\u00e1m poni\u017eova\u0165\u2026<\/p><p class=\"p2\"><span class=\"s1\">\u00a0<\/span>Skvelo som to vymyslel, som na seba hrd\u00fd. Ale bud\u00fa na m\u0148a hrd\u00ed aj ostatn\u00ed? \u010co si o mne pomyslia? \u010co ke\u010f to nebude sta\u010di\u0165? Ako sa im uk\u00e1\u017eem na o\u010di? \u010co ak ma nebud\u00fa ma\u0165 radi? \u010co ak ma nebud\u00fa uzn\u00e1va\u0165 a vy\u010dlenia?<\/p><p class=\"p2\"><span class=\"s1\">\u00a0<\/span>A je to tu znova, zasa ten moment, teraz v\u0161ak pri\u0161iel z inej strany. Ako je to mo\u017en\u00e9? Kde som spravil chybu? Som neschopn\u00fd. Ako by ma mohol ma\u0165 niekto r\u00e1d, ke\u010f to nezvl\u00e1dam? Sch\u00falim sa do klbka a nech si ma nik nev\u0161\u00edma, nech mi daj\u00fa v\u0161etci pokoj a ja nejako do\u017eijem svoj \u017eivot. Ale kto potom budem? Nie, takto nem\u00f4\u017eem \u017ei\u0165, toto predsa nie je spr\u00e1vne. Zodvihnem hlavu a vykro\u010d\u00edm.<\/p><p class=\"p2\"><span class=\"s1\">\u00a0<\/span>V\u0161etci m\u00e1 chv\u00e1lia, ak\u00fd som skvel\u00fd, \u017ee som sa postavil na nohy po tom v\u0161etkom, \u010do sa mi stalo, moja hodnota rastie, c\u00edtim sa milovan\u00fd, \u017eivot je jednoducho \u00fa\u017easn\u00fd. Vtom op\u00e4\u0165 pr\u00edde ten moment. \u00c1no, ten, ktor\u00fd ma zraz\u00ed do kolien, preto\u017ee niekto nespravil to, \u010do som o\u010dak\u00e1val, preto\u017ee som spravil chybu, povedal, \u010do som nemal poveda\u0165.<\/p><p class=\"p2\"><span class=\"s1\">\u00a0<\/span>E\u0161te viac sa h\u013ead\u00e1m v druh\u00fdch, v\u00a0t\u00fdch, ktor\u00ed mi st\u00e1le d\u00f4veruj\u00fa a myslia si, \u017ee na to m\u00e1m, \u017ee som dobr\u00fd, \u017ee za to stoj\u00edm, ktor\u00ed ma maj\u00fa radi. A potom to pr\u00edde, rana, ktor\u00fa m\u00e1m pocit, \u017ee nepre\u017eijem. Ke\u010f aj t\u00ed najbli\u017e\u0161\u00ed, ktor\u00ed ma v\u017edy podporovali, mi daj\u00fa poc\u00edti\u0165 moju nedostato\u010dnos\u0165, lebo som nie\u010do nespravil, nepovedal, jednoducho nesplnil ich o\u010dak\u00e1vania. Mo\u017eno som im len nedal to, \u010do oni vo mne h\u013eadali vo mne.<\/p><p class=\"p2\"><span class=\"s1\">\u00a0<\/span>Ako mam \u017ei\u0165? Ke\u010f nedok\u00e1\u017eem \u017ei\u0165 tak, aby som nikdy neurobil chybu? Aby som v\u017edy uspokojil a vyhovel ka\u017ed\u00e9mu. Aby som bol nato\u013eko dokonal\u00fd, sebavedom\u00fd, empatick\u00fd, v\u010fa\u010dn\u00fd, siln\u00fd, uvedomel\u00fd, jemn\u00fd, \u00faspe\u0161n\u00fd, priate\u013esk\u00fd \u2026 Ve\u010f ak to v\u0161etko nezvl\u00e1dnem, k\u00fdm budem v o\u010diach druh\u00fdch?<\/p><p class=\"p2\"><span class=\"s1\">\u00a0<\/span>U\u017e to m\u00e1m! N\u00e1jdem niekoho, komu budem absol\u00fatne vyhovova\u0165. Je to ale v\u00f4bec mo\u017en\u00e9? Ve\u010f ja zostanem nav\u017edy s\u00e1m. S\u00e1m, \u00faplne s\u00e1m\u2026 S t\u00fdmito slovami prich\u00e1dza obrovsk\u00fd strach. Nie tak\u00fd, ako ke\u010f vid\u00edm nie\u010do, \u010doho sa boj\u00edm. Toto je nie\u010do absol\u00fatne, nie\u010do tak stra\u0161ideln\u00e9, \u017ee m\u00e1m probl\u00e9m sa nad\u00fdchnu\u0165. Obrovsk\u00e1 hr\u00f4za. Ni\u010d\u00ed ma to, trh\u00e1 na kusy, pohlcuje a konzumuje st\u00e1le viac. Pad\u00e1m na kolen\u00e1 a zm\u00f4\u017eem sa u\u017e len na posledn\u00fa ot\u00e1zku: Kto mi pom\u00f4\u017ee a zachr\u00e1ni ma?<\/p><p class=\"p2\">Nadvihnem o\u010di a predo mnou k\u013ea\u010d\u00ed na kolen\u00e1ch moja odpove\u010f. Je to niekto, kto ma dok\u00e1\u017ee absol\u00fatne podpori\u0165, niekto, pri kom sa m\u00f4\u017eem m\u00fdli\u0165 a spravi\u0165 chyby, niekto, kto mi dok\u00e1\u017ee odpusti\u0165 \u00faplne v\u0161etko, kto ma m\u00f4\u017ee bezhrani\u010dne milova\u0165 a kto mi d\u00e1 moju skuto\u010dn\u00fa sebahodnotu a d\u00f4veru v\u00a0seba. Je to niekto tak dokonal\u00fd, \u017ee nik dokonalej\u0161\u00ed pre m\u0148a u\u017e neexistuje. Usmejem sa nad jednoduchos\u0165ou tej odpovede. Tak dlho som ju h\u013eadal, tak zlo\u017eito, to\u013eko energie som do toho dal a \u017eivot mi zatia\u013e unikal pomedzi prsty, k\u00fdm ja som sa hnal za fatamorg\u00e1nou. \u010co mi to prinieslo? Len boles\u0165.<\/p><p class=\"p1\">Teraz u\u017e nemus\u00edm. Teraz som kone\u010dne slobodn\u00fd, preto\u017ee teraz som to na\u0161iel.<\/p><p class=\"p3\">Na\u0161iel som seba sam\u00e9ho.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Ten moment, kedy by som sa najrad\u0161ej sch\u00falil do klbka, ten moment, ke\u010f mi nikto nerozumie, ten moment, ke\u010f sa v\u0161etko pokaz\u00ed, ten moment, ke\u010f som mal nie\u010do skvel\u00e9 napl\u00e1novan\u00e9 a nevy\u0161lo to, ten moment, ke\u010f sa p\u00fdtam seba sam\u00e9ho: M\u00e1 to e\u0161te zmysel? 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